I took some decisions again. It looks as if life is only taking decisions. I get rid of the future i create last year, just of things. Boyfriend is friend now and friend is lover. It was a fucking mistake to give him a chance again. But im yoo loved to be hated. Honestly! Life has changed in (oh!) so many ways. The one that keeps me alive is my best friend, my healer. Might be obssessed, but it feels sooo good. I dont know why i keep writing here. No one is reading, and at first no one understands the shit i mean. After all this is my own business. Im dumping all my awkward mind on this blank page. Yay it sounds like a sound of mine. Finding a melody is the hardest thing, turn words and feelings into music. Its an interior work. Anywayyyy. Im afraid not to be faithful at what i am. This can happen. What i was thinking is that i got seperated of my sweet and reassuring life. Im taking risks, and jump into the cold water. But this has never been so refreshing. I realize that i wanted him more than being safe, and protected. The poor poor knight. Now i can say it, im a slut for people. But all i can tell is that im living my life. It will make him more stronger. University is a place to be free, this is the best proof i could give. Civil war, monarchy, and britsh parliament are reasonning in that mike. Lmfao a ghost just came innnn. I have hope. I know im able to see my wolf again, he is wonderful like i never knew someone that beautiful. Its pathetic, everyones has vices and virtues (dedication babiess). But he's perfect. I mean my memories reflects a perfect angel. Maybe seeing each other again is a mistake. But we have one life, and its bloody short. With my cap on and my ruby red lips, i feel like i could win everything im fighting for. Why isnt there anyone like me. Am i that special? Am i nothing? Stop kidding i cant stand not knowing me, this is so frustrating. How can i introduce myself? With words that make me shake? Freedom, music, fun, love, EXPERIENCES, stories, success, wander, vagrant, only, world, travelsss. Might be me. Might not. Well back to the K. He makes me act completely stupidely, he makes me go insane. I hate to love that. Its like each sight seperate us of the world around.. That sounds stupid. I know one thing about me, i got so muuuch pride. Indeed I hate being vulnerable. Im smiling but not happy with that. I got the easy smile, thats why people get stuck on me. Ok theres a ghost in the amphi. Really. Nevermind. I feel kinda relieved now, its been one hour. I really got nothing to do. Ill come back soon to haunt this place. Who cares? Hahaha. You fools!