Long live the reckless and the brave, the ones that love life how it comes, and who live with a kid behind their ears. long live us. I am like back again. Yay. I've been experiencing lots of things, bullshits, victories or tragedies since the last time. I think i grew up in a way. I feel like i have two sides. The child one and the mature one. Im trying to be both. this is the best way to live a life. i mean for me. Now dear silent and invisible audience, please stand up and get out of my head. you won't get a thing, but thats sooo funny for me. i've been bitten so much by teeth infected by testosterone. This is so has been. Now girls are supposed to be cowboys, indestructible structures. I left a knight in love for the king. But now i don't think i can bear the power the king has on me. Am i really a princess ? Am I supposed to be a trophy, or a lottery? Or something that lose its worth.I don't give a shit of what i can be for people. we're not supposed to fight for the regard we deserve. im not a slut im speaking for me. Maybe i am. I play with heart beating, and physical frustration. But when i went closer to the sun, got scratched by a rat monkey. i got so much pride ans this one ridiculously tried to bring me down. I noticed that some evil clouds were floating in my insides. haha that's startling how much knowing yourself can make surprise. You don't know who you are, i don't know who i am. I think ill never know. Now with my high heels on stage, im waiting for a surprise. Im scared to think too much, and to lose my life's taste. Cellared in my beautiful and lovely cavern, im working hard my solos and real rock stuffs. Mrs Jett and Mister Moore's world in my head. Im daydreaming about doing Hendrix stuff in front of all the ones that laughed at me. Yes I was a victim once. This kind of shit happens. I forgot a thing. Being a drug addicted changed my way to act with people, im not scared to take opportunities, to try things with guys, to say things id never tell usually, to show the .. dark side of me. You know (who are youu) im a joyful girl. im not cynical, or only when im in front of me. Like now. don't know whyyyy things seems so black when we're alone. Human race sucks. we all act the same, the same shits. That's PATHETIC. yaay i spelled it right. but really, closer to the sun i felt alive. We were tramps, vagrants, sleeping on the same sand we were tanning on. Such crazyyyy fools. i never felt afraid of anything. Maybe i trust too much the world that surround me. But life's too short to have any fucking doubts. I just want to go forth. GO FORTH.